To MY Emily

Title: "Aqui Estoy Yo"
"Here I Am"
Artist: Luis Fonsi
Released: 2008

English


Here I am to make you laugh once again trust me, leave your fears behind and you’ll see

Here I am with a kiss burning on my lips it’s for you, it may change your life, let me get in. I ask the sun that a blue star will come to you and make you fall in love with its light

Here I am, opening my heart to you filling your lack of love blocking the pain don’t be afraid, I’ll look after you, you just have to accept me

Here I am to give you my strength and my breath and to help you draw butterflies which will become real in the darkness I want to be the one to awake in you a new feeling and the one to teach you to believe, to give yourself once again without reserves

I ask God for a touch of inspiration to be able to tell you what you expect to hear from me

Here I am, opening my heart to you filling your lack of love blocking the pain don’t be afraid, I’ll look after you, you just have to accept me

Give me your wings, I’m going to heal them and I’ll invite you to fly hand in hand

Here I am, opening my heart to you filling your lack of love blocking the pain don’t be afraid, I’ll look after you, you just have to accept me

Emily,

"Aqui estoy YO"
Your ever loving,
Anthony

Time for some Action

Yesterday was a life/body altering day for myself (Ant). I've been forever talking about getting another tattoo, and yesterday I finally took action making it happen. Just prior to sitting in the chair and undergoing the agonizing pain of the needle I had spoke to Emily. We chatted about how we're actually turning plans, goals, and dreams into reality. One of which was this tattoo that now covers my left arm. It felt so good to finally take action, no longer are ideas just being stored away in my head never seeing the light of day. It was like I finally was able to check something off my list, ohhhh the lists I/we have. Yesterday gave me the sense of accomplishment. The only things standing in the way of these lists are time, a little money, circumstances, and finally the effort (which normally keeps anything from ever happening). The lists get longer and longer, but only with good stuff. Things that will someday be looked back upon by both of US over yet another cup of coffee. We'll most assuredly still be holding hands, exchanging smiles, and knowing that we took charge of OUR life, living it OUR way.

The tattoo represents the four boys in my life: Gabriel, Geremiah, Julian, and Cristian Jose (CJ) whom are depicted by four Japanese Koi fish. They're swimming up against a raging current of water (LIFE) facing challenges all along the way. Once they swim their swim against the tide and get into the calmer waters on the other side, the fish will eventually (God willing) turn into dragons (MEN).

Here

I am far away from that Starbucks right now, and every day I miss the time we usually spend together talking and smiling. He suprised me that first day when he sat and listened to every word I said and never once made me feel like he needed to leave. I've never met anyone who made me feel as though he had all the time in the world for me.

All this distance between us hasn't changed that. He still makes me feel as though I am the most important person in his world. I feel as though we are closer than ever, never mind how far apart we are.

My Sunshine

Do you remember that song “You Are My Sunshine”, by Jimmie Davis. You know the one that goes:

You Are My Sunshine

My only sunshine.

You make me happy When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear, How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away

Well needless to say, now I get it. SHE really is my sunshine. Since our very first encounter 28 October 2008, at a Starbuck’s in Fayetteville, N.C. she’s managed to brighten up my life. Soon afterwards she started to heat my life up with a fiery loving never known to my body or mind. As if that weren’t enough I find my persona growing, the need to be with her always unbearable, and the promise that I had previously made to myself (to be the BEST man I could ever be) prior to meeting her even more motivated now. SHE truly is my sunshine, the center most focal point in my universe where all my planets and stars now revolve around.

Life Line

I've often sat and wondered how lovers kept their home fires burning ages ago when one of them left off for wars or sea voyages thousands of mile away, years at a time. E-mail, phone cards, webcam, IM, yeah right, they wished I'm sure. Surely it must've been that old flame of LOVE. You know, the kind that keeps you coming back for more. NO matter how much or how deep you've gotten yourself into love, it never seems to be enough. It really does become another natural sense to your being, like eating or breathing. She's become the Sun to my world. Brightening every day, warming my face with a brilliant and radiant warmth that only SHE can provide. I'm so thankful to be living in a technological age that allows me to be and feel so close HER. I'm confidenent in knowing that if we didn't have these tools at our disposal to keep in touch that the fire in my heart would continue to burn a scorching, blinding flame for HER. She's the ONE.....

Our Bubble

I'm so excited about OUR blog! Being apart isn't easy, but I love that we can make our bubble spread over the miles and oceans between us. Every opportunity I have I go to the beach and listen to the waves break against the rocks and sand and think about all the beauty I am lucky to witness. There is so much to share and spread around "like manure" in the words of Dolly...

Like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon, life is full of wonder and every moment together is an affirmation of all that is good.

Mariposas

We decided this morning to create this BLOG to keep a living journal of OUR life together, a record if you will to share with our friends, family, and the rest of the world. LOVE is a gift best shared with others. Already it feels SO good to be out there sharing US. For those who don't already know, "Mariposa" is Spanish for "Butterfly". Funny how the whole "butterfly" came to be, I'll let BBG post on that.